Tears in Heaven

In the fading twilight of yet another long day, I walk the shores of this beach once more. The cool wet sand sinking underneath my weight, as I follow the trails of yet another sunset. I revel in the feeling of the gentle caress of the wind. It’s fingertips coursing through my hair and body as I let my eyes gaze out towards the unknown expanse of the great ocean before me. It’s vastness seeming to stretch beyond all of eternity. The white foam of a wave lap’s at my feet, it’s cold tongue bringing me back from my world of dreams, making me long for the warmth of days gone by.

Memories suddenly flash past the eye of my mind. They arouse yet another wave of pain in my heart and soul, Memories they seem of a life long past. Tears form anew in these already hazy eyes. They replace those that have dried, like the flow of a copious river in its never-ending wake.

A man and a woman I see before me. Two lovers enraptured in each other’s embrace. Lost they are to the world outside, yet within each other’s arms they have all that they would ever desire. Memories start to run havoc in my mind, for glimpses I see of my life when once I too had such an embrace. Memories that refuse to let my mind idle in blissful silence.

I lay myself down on the warm, soft sand and shut my eyes, while I let my senses wander into the corridors of my dreams. Trapped am I within these dreams for all eternity, for there are so many walls around me, walls that trap my heart, my soul and my whole life. I see her now, so clear in my thoughts. I hear her voice, so beautiful in my ears. I feel her hands, so gentle on my face. I taste her kisses, so sweet on my lips. She seems so close now that I could almost reach out and touch her. So close that I could hold her in these arms that have longed for her for so long. Hope forms anew in a heart shattered through time. Hope, that a broken dream may yet come true.

Suddenly, she seems to drift away, leaving me crying out to angels. Crying out for her, but knowing in my heart, that she has left me forever. An icy wave of loneliness washes over my heart. I now know that from henceforth, all four seasons of my life shall be spent longing for a love that was long lost in the oceans of my dark and dreary life. Oceans filled by countless tears in heaven.